21
Dec

Life Altering Decision

   Posted by: Janahan Balasingham   in Experience, Personal, Relationships

I’m sort of at an emotional turmoil lately and I would very much like to hear opinions before I make a decision that would change my life.

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13
Jul

Health Update

   Posted by: Janahan Balasingham   in Experience, Personal

After realizing the seriousness of my health problem, I pushed my GP explaining the urgency for an appointment to get my MRI scan. He informed NHS and they called me to setup the appointment last saturday (2nd  of June). Went to the hospital to get the scan.
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8
Jun

Apologies are not so easy

   Posted by: Janahan Balasingham   in Experience, Personal, Relationships

Like I’ve said many times, I have commitment issues. I dislike the idea of being in a relationship or being responsible of somebody other than myself. Because if I screw up, I will not only be blamed for destruction of my future but someone else’s too. I don’t want to face that burden in my life. And I also love my freedom and independence.

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28
May

Health Issues

   Posted by: Janahan Balasingham   in Experience, Personal

I have always been reluctant to go to Doctors. Don’t know why that is though. It’s not a fear or anything but for some reason I just don’t prefer to go unless I really have to. Maybe it’s because I don’t like to think of myself weak to need a doctor. Same reason why I registered with the local GP 3 years ago but never had to go for anything. With my pain threshold, I didn’t need it until now.

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10
Mar

Bad News About a Friend

   Posted by: Janahan Balasingham   in Experience

I got some bad news about a friend of mine. She is a friend for me and a close friend of Emma’s.
 
Got a call last night from her husband that she went into pre-mature labour. She was pregnant for 14 weeks and the baby died. She is in a lot of pain after that so he called Emma to inform her.
 
I feel very sad. Don’t know how she feels but it must be really bad. I know how excited she was about being pregnant and all. This was their 1st child for both of them. Her husband looks crushed and worried. We waited until her family came to the hospital and then left.
 
Emma took the day off and I tried to get some sleep. For some reason, I couldn’t sleep at all. Was sweaty and had weird dreams all day long. Gave up sleeping now. Don’t know why I feel am affected this way. I normally don’t get affected when someone dies but this time, it really hit me for some reason.
 
Wish I could understand my feelings. Is this because it was an innocent infant that died?
 
Hope the way I feel right now goes away soon.

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