Relationships are one confusing thing. People we think we know end up surprising us in a good way or a bad way. Now this happened a month ago but I didn’t get a chance to write about it.
As I wrote in my earlier post, I met up with an ex of mine recently. She called in again and wanted to go out and I thought about it for a while before agreeing. I spoke with someone else about my confusion and they said that I won’t know what her expectations are unless I talk to her about it. So we ended up going to Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (horrible movie by the way) which is one of her favourite franchise. Had a laugh about the inaccuracies in the movie with the book and it felt nice. Afterwards, we went out for dinner and I waited for her to start the topic. She gave no indication of talking about it so I started. Luckily we both know each other well so I didn’t have to embarrass myself too much before she understood what I was trying to get to. Surprisingly her expectations are not what I assumed. I thought she would want to go partying all night or do the crazy things we used to do but she surprised me by saying that it wasn’t what she was after. All she wanted was to hang out with me and if it means in the front of the computer, so be it as long as I am there. That was definitely not what I thought she would say. I found another depth on her character I didn’t know before. Maybe I should I have expected her to say something like that because I knew her but my in-securities made me doubt it.
Now we seem to be together doing things that normal couples do. Go out to the movies, dinner and stuff. Random visits to the clubs but not as wild as before and not all nighters. And to my pleasant surprise, she does not seem to find my physique as bad I thought she would. Ofcourse I am motivated to loose the weight I have gained in the last year and go back to my average weight. But it is nice that I don’t have to do it out of shame but for my own pleasure.
Are we a couple? I don’t know. How do you know if you are a couple or not? Do you know by being monogamous? Or is it because you declare your feelings for each other? Do friends who have sex and hang out together considered as a couple? I simply don’t know. All I know is life was easier before when I didn’t have to get confused about things like this.
But it is nice again to have someone to share your fears and confusions. Someone whom you don’t have to hide yourself and put a brave face and someone who empathize and understands your feelings.